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Wednesday, 14 December 2016 | 04:04 | 0 Words
بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
" Sedikit yang kamu dapat, dan kamu bersyukur, adalah lebih baik daripada banyak, tetapi kamu tak mampu nak pikul "
-عيني
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Wednesday, 7 December 2016 | 07:37 | 0 Words
بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
Hi, just wanna share to you something (yang dah lepas & dah lama pendam)
You can't just came into someone's life making them feel special and then you just gone. Especially w/o reason It hurts them
I'm so impress on how some people can make you feel special yesterday, makes you feel so unwanted today so fast.
God did not give you the strength to get backon your feet so that you can run back to the same thing that knocked you down
Be strong and move on. It's time.
Kalau orang tak mampu keep kita, buat apa kita nak stay? I learn from people. I'm a human. Not a tree
You can't make other people shut up when you are the one who opens their mouth and talk about you
Never doubt the millions of things a single dua can change or help to achieve.
For everything you lose there is a replacement. But for Allah, if you lose Him there is no replacement.
The minute you feel like you cant take it any more, go spend a little time with Allah, talk to Him in your prayers, He hears every word.
Two things to remember in life; Take care of your thoughts when you are alone, and take care of your words when you are with people.
Even the nicest people have their limits.
At times when things are difficult & not going to plan just raise your hand & make a dua from your heart to the one who is All Powerful.
Just because i don't react, doesn't mean i didn't notice.
Any good apology has three parts: 1) I'm sorry. 2) It's my fault. 3) What can I do to make it right? Most people forget the third part.
When you can't put your prayers into words, Allah hears your heart.
Baaaaanyak lagi benda nak share. But I think all of these enough kot.
Yes, I was (__). I know, it was the stupidest thing ive ever felt. I sendiri tak jangka benda ni could happened. Sorry, i cant control my emotions @ feelings (Yes, ingat aku nak ke letak harapan kat orang ni? Ingat nak ke ada perasaan kat orang ni? Ingat boleh control ke aku nak suka ke tak? Ive my own priorities la)
Ive my own reasons why i dont do confession, i know my condition, i know my kedudukan, i know my qualities.
It is totally nooooooot worth it (and still the stupidest thing) if i confess awal-awal. Obv, i want to focus on my studies and families, (also my future)
Yes, betul cakap mereka-mereka. I like to pendam perasaan (also mengalah and lantakkan je orang lain nak masuk [even aku yang sakit sendiri 'huhuhuhu']
I tak reti nak luahkan perasaan.
Ive some trust issues.
I always tak confident dengan diri sendiri.
I always bottle up my feelings (yang ni taktahulah dah berapa ramai yang cakap ceni)
But you need to know that, im human being. I also ada perasaan.
Im okay, but inside my head, the truth izzz i was mentally abused (hm acahnya) (u dont know how much ive killed ppl in my mind)
Tipulah kalau kata I tak sakit tengok that situation.
The situation when I started kena ignore.
When I felt that 'oh, dia dah ada orang baru'
When I thought that 'oh, you dont need me anymore'
When I saw that 'oh, you nampak sangat bahagia dengan dia'
When I hoped that 'Takpe....... Just pull yourself together'
Its okay.
I tried to not to get mad or whatsoever, because it is your right.
And I takde hak apa pun.
Yes, dia hebat lagi daripada I. Jagalah dia elok-elok :)
(The funniest thing is, i taktahu macam mana i boleh tahan nak pendam, then suddenly i burst teruk in front of someone leuwls)
Sorry sorry sorry for being freaking stupid.
Sorry because I was such a crybaby.
Sorry I may be a burden to all of you.
Sorry I cant even control myself.
Sorry, im not cool anymore
Sorry things are getting awkward
I hope i can get rid this feelings, but i just cant.
Just go on with your life. Im healing myself.
Give me some time.
Please, if no, say no. (Also, im stil wondering why you................?)
Jangan buat benda yang sama kat orang lain. Please jangan sakitkan orang lain, jangan buat orang lain rasa sama macam apa yang i rasa. They thought they are special but actually they arent. (Me sorang je kot rasa camtu, ntah, cepat perasan, siapa suruh)
Also, this matter, bukan salah sesiapa. Its my own fault. Im truly sorry. Hope everyone is okay with that. (Small matter maa)
Thank you kepada yang tolong tadahkan air mata i (yes i know it was stupid) (my first time lol bodoh gila perangai)
Thank you yang dengar i bebel lepastu ntah tetiba nangis (lol lagi)
Thank you kepada yang tak putus asa nasihatkan i :)
Thank you kepada yang sabar dengan kerenah i :)
Thank you yang selalu motivate i, even dari jauh, even sekadar di socs media,
[ yes, i read that :) ]
Thank you for telling me that it was okay to cry because of this stupid thing :)
Thank you sebab ajar dunia ni menyakitkan :)
Thank you sebab tunjuk yang dunia ni banyak lagi fasa nak kena tempuh :)
Thank you, for everything, to all of you :)
Spread love, no hate ;)
May God bless all of us.
-عيني
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بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
Moga Allah kuatkan hati ini
-عيني
Be Grateful
Tuesday, 23 August 2016 | 07:41 | 0 Words
بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
فَبِأَيِّ آلَاءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ
فَبِأَيِّ آلَاءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ
" Then which of the favours of your lord will you deny? "
" Maka nikmat Tuhan kamu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan? "
Ar-Rahman. This verse, which got mentioned 31 times in Quran (if im not mistaken la) So today, i feel i wanna share some of my random thoughts/opinion about this verse. Okay, lets tadabbur this verse for awhile (jom muhasabah diri)
First thing first, how much do we appreciate with what we have or what we got now, around us? And, how do we show or express that we are grateful with what we have now. Well, theres no need for us untuk pandang jauh sangat. Along this time with our tubuh badan ni complete, ada tak kita bersyukur? Then, what about parents? Family? Friends? Think about it.
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Frankly i said, i orang yang kadang-kadang (selalu jugak kot?) lupa nak bersyukur, hatta perkara yang kecil sekalipun (maaf, ana manusia biasa, uhuks) :'B It is very important okay to be grateful on every single 'nikmat' (okay sounds weird) or blessings that we got, even yang sekecil-kecil kuman tu pun (or maybe smaller than that) because, we may not know that nikmat yang kecil tu la, yang membuatkan kita success sekarang (or mungkin in the future)
But as a normal human being yang khilaf, (oh and we're not maksum ya) this thing yang kita selalu terlepas pandang. And this is why i reaaaaaally love to keep this verse in my heart.
Sincerely i said, deep in my heart, i have a feeling like, urm, (a moment of silence for aini to express her feelings) i always envy with others, those who are smarter or greater (especially in multi-tasking-works) than me, insecure and so on (just look how much negativity vibes in myself) (teruknya aini) *stay away from aini* (yes ofc i know its bad, yes my bad im sorry,now if you dont mind, please lemme continue my words [tetiba ?]).
Sincerely i said, deep in my heart, i have a feeling like, urm, (a moment of silence for aini to express her feelings) i always envy with others, those who are smarter or greater (especially in multi-tasking-works) than me, insecure and so on (just look how much negativity vibes in myself) (teruknya aini) *stay away from aini* (yes ofc i know its bad, yes my bad im sorry,
Plus, tbh lah kan, i selalu rasa macam kena push, maybe because of my surroundings yang affect me, or rakan-rakan keliling semua pandai pandai belaka *insert emoji nangis* Not saying that i them because deme pandai, no no no. I just rasa macam, i totally tak layak, nak stay bersama mereka. Huhuhu *insert emoji nangis lagi*
Okay, back to the main point, i mean, that verse. I really want to highlight that, this verse, totally encourage me to pull myself back, plus, it soothes my heart. It teaches me the definition of sabr, thanks to Allah everyday, aaaand dont ever give up.
" Nak tanya sikitlah, kaitan ke diri kau yang kena push tu, dengan ayat ni ?"
Tahu tak, tempat i sambung study ni pun act under tajaan, and actually there are so many people that are more suitable than me to get this 'tajaan'. But still, why me?
" Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. "
لَا يُكَلِّفُ ٱللَّهُ نَفْسًا إِلَّا وُسْعَهَا" Allah tidak akan membebankan seseorang hamba itu melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya "
" Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. "
As for me, i anggap yang Allah sebenarnya nak uji diri ni, sejauh mana kita boleh hadapi ujianNya. And sebanyak mana kita bersyukur dengan apa yang Dia beri, dengan harapan kita tidak kufur nikmat. Besides, we know that, there are a lot of people in this world that would like to learn/study, going to school like normal people does (awat, yang tak pi sekolah tu tak normal ka?) but they just cant. Insufficient money, those who live in places such Ghaza, Syria, (i mean negara yang bergolak), these such things become barriers for them, that prevent them from learning, or continue their study. And this is why, kita sepatutnya bersyukur, yang kita masih lagi dapat hidup dengan harmoni, belajar dengan aman with friends, and family (alhamdulillah setakat ni). Kalau nak dibandingkan dengan negara bergolak sana tu, makanan pun belum tentu dapat jumpa. Most of them are starving, they need help, i mean, they really are. (Gosh, i cant believe this) Serius, sangat-sangat kesian dekat mereka. Please, pray for them. So, the conclusion is? Besryukur :) Alhamdulillah.
I see human but no humanity
Doa untuk mereka yang teraniaya. May Allah bless :)
اللهم انصر الاسلام واخواننا والمجاهدين في فلسطين و في سوريا و لبيا و في غزة و في كل مكان و كل زمان
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Monday, 24 March 2014 | 11:09 | 0 Words
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
Life is not a matter of milestones, but of moments.
Bismillah. Okay , saya buat post ni untuk reply post kawan saya yang sorang tu, yang dah rindukan saya sesangat tu (poyo) Sepatutnya post ni dibuat masa awal bulan 2, tapi macam tak sempat la kan.
1st thing dude. How's your life without me? Sunyi tak? Heh. I miss trio of you. Dasar 3 musketeers betul hek. Tak mau down lagi hokayh.
Acane pelajaran? Okay kan? Without aku pun , komfem boleh punya. Sebab bukan aku yang mengajar pun *muahaha*
Astaghfirullahal'azim *facepalm*
Well. IMY you guys.
Rindu sangat.
Ntah bila boleh jumpa.
Ingat tak masa majlis tu? Aku tau kau nangis. Kau tau aku nangis. Aku taknak pujuk kau sebab, aku taknak kau tengok aku nangis. Aku segan. (nampak tak ke'ego'annya) Aku susah nak rendahkan ego aku. Entah la. Pujuk kau je kot. Kenapa aku taknak ek.
Kat atas pentas pun aku dah cabut awal-awal (Ya Allah sumpah malu sangat yang teramat sangat la sangat time tu)
Aku gembira jumpa kawan baru. Tapi aku masih sayang kawan lama. Aku masih sayang dengan perangai aku bila bersama kalian semua.
That's why , aku masuk sekolah baru pun, perangai aku susah sangat nak diubah. Rasanya.
Aku rindu. Semuanya memori.
Segala bait-bait (alamak, macam bercinta dah) yang kita lalui. Pertama kali bersua. Pertama kali menegur. Yang seorang sudi menegur aku, semasa F1. Kalau tak, takde kawan la aku sebab tak reti nak bersosial. Waktu F2, lagi budak 2 orang ni. Selalu berinteraksi melalui orang tengah. Baling-baling barang (okay , tak matang sangat) Gaduh-gaduh kita pun, buruk-buruk kita pun, ngumpat-ngumpat kita pun (jom istighfar) , kita tetap sekepala :)
Fi hifzillah.
Terima kasih sebab, tolong bantu aku di saat aku susah.
Terima kasih, sudi menemani aku, ke mana saja.
Terima kasih sudi menegur aku, dan menerima teguran aku.
Dan, terima kasih sebab, sudi terima aku, menjadi kawan kalian.
Walaupun banyak sangat kelemahan dalam diri aku.
Walaupun diri aku ni, tidak disenangi oleh beberapa pihak.
Semoga Allah memberkati kalian.
Terima kasih.
Dah boleh kot tampar muka annoying aku ni hahaha
Insya'Allah , kita sama-sama , berjaya dunia akhirat. Sokong satu sama lain. Tarik yang jatuh. Bangkitkan semula.
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Al fatihah.
#PRAYFORMH370
Let's pray for MH370 :)
P/s : For my beloveeeeeeeddddddd friends lah sangat , jaga diri elok - elok. Nanti dah besor , kita boleh trobek kenangan kita sesama. Ye dak ? He.
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Tuesday, 24 December 2013 | 05:13 | 0 Words
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
Life makes us stronger
Looking at the sunset.
" Teringat daku kembali. Saat kasih bersemi. Kita mengukir janji. "
" Hoi oi , berangan eh ? Hahahaha "
Brr. Stop your cerita ala - ala kayangan gitu wahh -.- Agak kalau nak cerita pasal PMR sempat lagi dak? Urm , bukan orang kesah kot. Hakhak -..- On that day la kan, 19/12/13. Lambat sikir rasa nervous aku nak datang. Dekat dalam kereta baru nak rasa kot. Kat rumah pun sengsorang masa tu , tunggu abah ambik. Sementara tunggu tu ada kawan mesej.
" Aini kita dapat 8A 1B. Redha. "
" Seriously check sms keeeeeee ?!?! " (nervous)
" Ha'ah. Nak kita check kan ? "
" Taknakkkkkkkkkkkkkkk takpe la "
Kat dalam kereta pulak sementara menunggu kejap majlis tu mula , tetiba umi call abah.
" Helo, adik dapat 9A "
And aku masatu kebetulan pulak dengar sebab volume kuat terus jerit
" Umiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!! Kenapa bagitauuuuuuuu , tak surprise laaaaaaaa "
Abah gelak je. Heh. Lepastu, petang tu, saja nak check result pakai sms. Hahah. Nampak noo takde keje.
So , tahniah kepada sesiapa yang berjaya dalam PMR :) Yang tak berjaya , tak usah sedih - sedih. Anda dah cuba yang terbaik. Lain kali jangan memain muahaha (macamlah aku belajar serious sangat) Alhamdulillah, dapat result yang baik. Kalau result tak baik, memang jangan harap la aku nak kabo, share share gambar gini.
To be honest , aku kurang senang bila orang tanya " Dah dapat 9A ni , mintak hadiah apa kat parents ? " Seriously, rasa macam untuk apa aku belajar ? Semata-mata nak ganjaran ? Phew. Please jangan tanya soalan tu lagi.
21 & 22. Best day kot. Family day. Bukan selalu dapat bersama dengan cukupnya 9 adik beradik umi tu. Itupun ada lagi yang takdok. Biasalah, memeriahkan suasana. Tak payah grand-grand pun takpe. Asalkan kami bahagia (insert emoji gelak)
Teringat Kandak kata
Wah. Kagum betul aku dengar. Haha , best kot dapat bergaul dengan kazen-kazen sekian lama tak jumpa. Waktu dulu masa 1st 1st baru nak naik sekolah menengah , rasa macam tak kenal sesape padahal waktu kecik-kecik tu la selalu main kejar-kejar. Alhamdulillah sekarang dah mesra balik (sebab awkward kot?) :)
Rindu kampung lama. Rindu nak main sesame. Rindu semuanya. Rindu arwah wan. Rindu nak main sama-sama dengan arwah wan masa kekecik dulu. Rindu arwah atuk. Rindu nak kena cium dengan arwah atuk lepastu rasa geli-geli sebab misai dengan janggut. Allahu :'( Al fatihah.
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Rindu kalian. Rindu kenangan. Selamat bersemadi.
Thank you to A'ifaa untuk hadiah ni :)
I miss you la cikedingggggggggggg ! Nak hug isk isk. Serius rindu :'(
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Farewell.
I need some spirit. Please help me. Please give me some spirit please. Aaannnnnd I can't believe sekolah dah nak mula -.-
P/s : Kak Zue , saya sangat jeles ni alahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh T.T
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Brr. Stop your cerita ala - ala kayangan gitu wahh -.- Agak kalau nak cerita pasal PMR sempat lagi dak? Urm , bukan orang kesah kot. Hakhak -..- On that day la kan, 19/12/13. Lambat sikir rasa nervous aku nak datang. Dekat dalam kereta baru nak rasa kot. Kat rumah pun sengsorang masa tu , tunggu abah ambik. Sementara tunggu tu ada kawan mesej.
" Aini kita dapat 8A 1B. Redha. "
" Seriously check sms keeeeeee ?!?! " (nervous)
" Ha'ah. Nak kita check kan ? "
" Taknakkkkkkkkkkkkkkk takpe la "
Kat dalam kereta pulak sementara menunggu kejap majlis tu mula , tetiba umi call abah.
" Helo, adik dapat 9A "
And aku masatu kebetulan pulak dengar sebab volume kuat terus jerit
" Umiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!! Kenapa bagitauuuuuuuu , tak surprise laaaaaaaa "
Abah gelak je. Heh. Lepastu, petang tu, saja nak check result pakai sms. Hahah. Nampak noo takde keje.
So , tahniah kepada sesiapa yang berjaya dalam PMR :) Yang tak berjaya , tak usah sedih - sedih. Anda dah cuba yang terbaik. Lain kali jangan memain muahaha (macamlah aku belajar serious sangat) Alhamdulillah, dapat result yang baik. Kalau result tak baik, memang jangan harap la aku nak kabo, share share gambar gini.
Apa pun result kita , biarlah berkat kejayaan tu. Kalau tak berkat , dah berjaya tinggi - tinggi pun masih rasa tak puas. Ye dak ?
Ada orang editkan gambar ni, pls jangan kecam k tahu kelakar hahaha
Thank you Mira :) May Allah bless
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Idaman gila kot. Nak belajar menembak. Pistol mainan pun boleh. Pegang pun tak reti. Heh.
Teringat Kandak kata
" Pertemuan kita semua ni insya'Allah bakal melahirkan bakal mujahideen negara "
Wah. Kagum betul aku dengar. Haha , best kot dapat bergaul dengan kazen-kazen sekian lama tak jumpa. Waktu dulu masa 1st 1st baru nak naik sekolah menengah , rasa macam tak kenal sesape padahal waktu kecik-kecik tu la selalu main kejar-kejar. Alhamdulillah sekarang dah mesra balik (sebab awkward kot?) :)
Rindu kampung lama. Rindu nak main sesame. Rindu semuanya. Rindu arwah wan. Rindu nak main sama-sama dengan arwah wan masa kekecik dulu. Rindu arwah atuk. Rindu nak kena cium dengan arwah atuk lepastu rasa geli-geli sebab misai dengan janggut. Allahu :'( Al fatihah.
Ni pebende comel sangat ni Annajah sayang :(
Btw , someone made my day :) You all memang kan.
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Rindu kalian. Rindu kenangan. Selamat bersemadi.
Thank you to A'ifaa untuk hadiah ni :)
I miss you la cikedingggggggggggg ! Nak hug isk isk. Serius rindu :'(
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Farewell.
Selamat datang ke 2014.
I need some spirit. Please help me. Please give me some spirit please. Aaannnnnd I can't believe sekolah dah nak mula -.-
P/s : Kak Zue , saya sangat jeles ni alahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh T.T
